Giving it to HIM and not taking it back…

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Where do I start…?

I am often anxious…

” Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus”


I know this verse above… It plays over and over in my head. I know it to be true, so why is it so hard? I give my anxieties to HIM and then I sometimes take them back…

I struggle to find peace at times…

“Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled ”


I also know this verse to be true, but again, my heart is often heavy and I long for peace. Peace for myself and for others.

I sometimes do not feel good enough…

But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me.

I Know this verse to be true but I am hard on myself. I often feel that I have failed. I struggle to accept mercy.

I am often weak …

“Hear me as I pray, O Lord.
Be merciful and answer me!”

I cry. I know that no matter what is going in in my life, I am where God wants me to be. Yet I still cry out for HIM to change things even though I know HE already has my life planned.

“A man’s heart plans his way,
But the Lord directs his steps.”

What can I do…?
How do I find peace, strength and courage ?

God knows that I am HIS anxious child, HE knows I am not perfect, HE knows I cry…HE has every little hair on my head ( even the grey ones) accounted for!

HE always answers my prayer when I pray… ” Lord, place me where you want me to be today”… Now I need to trust HIM when I land in that “place”.

I know constant prayer is the antidote to anxiety, fear, heartache and weakness. Praying lets God speak to my heart… I am trying to ” worry less and pray more”. I want to give it all to HIM and not take it back…. Who’s in?

Carrie

Do we ever listen?

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Being still is so hard, at least for me it is. I am not talking about physically still. I am talking about mentally still. We talk and talk and talk. Not just with our mouth but in our head.
We talk when we pray… we try to be still but out head is talking about worry. It is talking about worldly things. It is talking about selfish things. Do we ever listen? We need to be still in our heart and in our mind to hear God. We find him in our stillness. We need to drop our hands, relax and reflect on what God can do for us that we cannot do for ourselves, give him thanks and listen…

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I don’t know any perfect people

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Recently I had the pleasure of spending a weekend away with some ladies that I love… the kind of people that I feel safe sharing my past with and never feel judged! Yes those rare few that we find in life. One of our discussions was…” If we could change our past would we”? The majority of us of us said NO. We did all agree that we never wanted to be put “through the ringer” again like we all have at some point in our lives but our past, the good and the ugly made us who we are. I still do not understand how any person can go through a trial in life and not have compassion for another “in the same boat” so to speak. Maybe I will never understand that. I do know that most of the people that I am closest to, have been broken and are imperfect just like myself but they are perfect to me and God loves them all the same!

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