Where do I start…?
I am often anxious…
” Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus”
I know this verse above… It plays over and over in my head. I know it to be true, so why is it so hard? I give my anxieties to HIM and then I sometimes take them back…
I struggle to find peace at times…
“Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled ”
I also know this verse to be true, but again, my heart is often heavy and I long for peace. Peace for myself and for others.
I sometimes do not feel good enough…
But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me.
I Know this verse to be true but I am hard on myself. I often feel that I have failed. I struggle to accept mercy.
I am often weak …
“Hear me as I pray, O Lord.
Be merciful and answer me!”
I cry. I know that no matter what is going in in my life, I am where God wants me to be. Yet I still cry out for HIM to change things even though I know HE already has my life planned.
“A man’s heart plans his way,
But the Lord directs his steps.”
What can I do…?
How do I find peace, strength and courage ?
God knows that I am HIS anxious child, HE knows I am not perfect, HE knows I cry…HE has every little hair on my head ( even the grey ones) accounted for!
HE always answers my prayer when I pray… ” Lord, place me where you want me to be today”… Now I need to trust HIM when I land in that “place”.
I know constant prayer is the antidote to anxiety, fear, heartache and weakness. Praying lets God speak to my heart… I am trying to ” worry less and pray more”. I want to give it all to HIM and not take it back…. Who’s in?